Stimulating Others to Love

I apologize for not writing for so long, and I really do want to keep up with my blog and will try to be better with it.  I know my recent posts have been quite lengthy and involved and so whenever I thought of writing I knew I didn't have that much time.  But from her on out I will try to keep my posts shorter and more to the point but write more often. (Here's to hoping since I tend to be long-winded.)

So you're probably wondering if I've kept up with the whole growth mindset thing and the answer is definitely YES.  I won't insult your intelligence and tell you that I've been a perfect student where this is concerned, but I have seen much personal growth in these past 2 months.  I have since finished my first graduate class with Liberty University and am well on my way to finishing up my training for my first half marathon.  I have committed to getting at least 7 hours of sleep a night while still taking care of my family and making time for friends and a weekly Bible study.  But the most impressive part?  I HAVE DONE IT ALL WITHOUT A TO-DO LIST.  Yes, you read correctly.  For all of you to-do listers out there--it is possible to have a productive existence without tying yourself down to lists.  In fact, it has been the most freeing experience.  I have found that while a to-do list always left me frustrated with the few things I did not get done (no matter how many things I DID get done), having no list allowed me to enjoy feeling good about the things I knew I got done.  Try it--I promise you will not be disappointed.

In closing, I wanted to share with you a verse that has been going through my head over and over recently.  Hebrews 10:24 says, "Let us consider how to stimulate one another to love and good deeds."  Often, those of us who daily battle the fixed mindset, have a tendency to stimulate others to work themselves to the bone (themselves included).  Have you ever thought how much self-control it takes to SLOW DOWN and LOVE?  I challenge you to try that this week.  It's tough but so rewarding. 

Until next time,
Your fellow pilgrim

Applying the Growth Mindset

It has been incredibly rewarding to follow the suggestions in Dr. Dweck’s book on the growth mindset.  I can honestly say it’s been one of the most de-stressing weeks of my life.  I don’t remember a week being so carefree.  I don’t mean to say that I’ve been lazy or uninterested in progression—quite the opposite.  For the first time in a LONG time, maybe forever, I feel liberated to live life to the fullest, enjoying each moment.    Here are just a few examples of how my week has looked very different from a typical “Beth week.”

1.        I backed way down on the “to-do” list making.

I don’t know whether I will ever be able to not make lists because that is how my brain works, but I realized that I needed to take a break from them.  It’s like when you go on a diet to lose 30 lbs., you cut out all desserts and fast food.  When you reach your goal weight, you can allow yourself that occasional dessert or hamburger and it’s OK.  You’re no longer addicted. 

That’s the way I feel about lists.  I’ve always used them because they’ve been “effective.”  But I realized that every part of my life was ruled by them.  I made lists about making lists (I’m not joking); I’ve made lists about shopping, meal planning, packing, daily goals, weekly goals, monthly goals, and quarterly goals, prayer items, Scripture reading, activities to do with my children—you get the idea.  And if I did something that wasn’t on the list, I’d have to write in on the list and then cross it out.  As if, if I didn’t physically cross it off a piece of paper my work wasn’t validated.  Yikes.  I think I was going a bit over the top.  Or over the edge.

I’ve always loved lists because I NEVER forget things when I have lists.  That’s the plus side—but it’s also the negative side.  If it’s on my list, I never forget that I wrote it down and that usually, at the end of the day, I didn’t get it all done.

And so, I made a short list for myself on Monday and Tuesday but I still felt myself being glued to it or trying to finish that list as well as lots of stuff that I didn’t write down so I felt better about having a short list.  And then I realized, OK, this shorter list thing is not helping.  I need to do away with lists all together for a while until my addiction is under control.  And you know what?  Not having lists is not such a bad thing.

Case in Point:  When my husband and I went for an overnight stay last weekend I decided not to make a packing list.  “It’s just overnight,” I thought to myself, “I don’t need that much stuff anyway.  I’m sure I won’t forget anything too important.”  Well, much to my chagrin I forgot a brush and my mousse, both of which I use religiously every morning.  When I first noticed my blunder, I could feel my blood pressure rise (stress) and then I said to myself, “Why do you think you need these things?  Are you positive you can’t fix your hair without them?”  And so, I chose to let the bad feelings go and proceeded to try my best without the forgotten items.  Result?  My hair looked no different than it does any other day.  Lesson?  I could be saving money on mousse.

2.       I’ve been able to let things brush off of me.

Even under more “stressful” situations this week because of extra responsibilities related to my husband’s job, I’ve been able to have a much more blasé attitude.  It’s not like my stress level changes the circumstances, so why risk my health?

Case in Point:  When my “nothing-ever-gets-under-my-skin” husband came home earlier this week fuming about his job, I had one of the most enjoyable moments of our 7-year marriage—I suggested that since he can’t change what’s happening, he should find a better way to cope with his stress since I’d decided to have a good positive attitude about his crappy work schedule this week!

3.       I’ve slept a lot better with less jaw tension and back aches.

Stress affect every part of your life—a large part being your physical health.  Three of the ways (and there are more) that stress has affected my body is chronic fatigue, teeth grinding, and shoulder pain.  The last year especially, I have battled waking up and not feeling rested, no matter how many hours I got.  It was never if I felt tired but to what degree I felt tired. 

I have ground my teeth so severely at night that the dentist told me I had to wear a specially-made night guard every night or I would be looking at losing teeth later in life.  OK, not so good.  So I am a proud owner of a slobbery night guard that I wear (mostly) religiously every night.  (Are any of you thinking of the movie “Date Night”?)

Case in Point:  Because I’m a grinder, I often would wake up with headaches, jaw tension and shoulder tension—shoulder tension that has forced me to seek relief thru acupuncture and physical therapy.  Since practicing my growth mindset?—feeling restful when I wake with plenty of energy during my day, no jaw tension, and much less shoulder pain.  Things are looking up.

4.       I’ve become a cheerleader for my children.

The area that has been affected most by my growth mindset has been my parenting.  Until I determined to speak growth-mindset words to my children, I didn’t realize how many opportunities we have as parents in a single day to influence the mindset of our children.   Here are some examples of changes I’ve made in how I speak to my children:

Instead of:	I say:
“You did a really great job at that!”	“I’m so proud of the effort you put into that!”
“See how fast you can get this done.”	“It’s not a race.  Just do your very best.  That’s what counts.”
“Wow.  You did such a great job at that.  You’re so smart!”	“Wow.  You did such a great job at that.  I’m so proud of the way you stuck with that project!”
“You did that so fast!  You’re so smart at mazes!”	“Well, since you completed that so quickly, why don’t you have fun and challenge yourself with this harder maze.  I know you’re good at figuring things out.”

Has it worked?

Case in Point:  Earlier this week while driving my son to school I asked him:

“Why do you think Mommy is so proud of you?”

My son: “Because I’m smart.”

Mommy’s score: 0

Today I asked my son again:

“Why do you think Mommy is so proud of you?”

My son: “Because I’m a good learner.”

Score for Mommy!

I’m telling you, this growth-mindset thing is getting really addictive…no, that’s the wrong word.  It’s getting really rewarding.  I like that.  I must be learning something.

Mindsets

By now you might have wondered why it has taken me a week to write my second entry.  Well, in keeping with the title of my blog, I determined not to hold myself to posting a certain number of entries or posting on certain days—more leeway gives me more freedom and less stress which is the goal!

Since I last posted, I have learned so much that it’s hard to know where to start.  I already have a file on my computer with several entry ideas ruminating in my brain.  Today’s entry is about a book that, next to the Bible, might just be the most influential book I’ve ever read.  It was recommended to me by a friend.  It just so happened that my nifty little Kindle arrived in the mail this week and even though I had no business spending any more money after our biggest spending Christmas to date, I found it extremely boring to stare at my Kindle with no books downloaded on it…kind of anticlimactic.  So against my own financial advice, I purchased my first e-book, and I’m glad I did because I’m not the same person that wrote a week ago.  And I’ve only read the first two chapters.

The life-changing book is Mindset: A Psychology of Success by Carol Dweck.  In her book, Dr. Dweck describes two basic mindsets that shape our decisions and how we view the outcome of those decisions.  The first mindset is what she calls the fixed mindset.  People with fixed mindsets believe that they are born with all the abilities and potential they will ever have and their life’s goal is to function within those abilities and avoid screw ups at all cost.  The second mindset is what she calls the growth mindset where you believe that, although you are born endowed with certain talents more than others along with a distinct personality, you alone have the power to determine your destiny by deciding whether to live safely within your natural abilities or to dare to venture out and explore your potential in other areas as well.  Life is about having fun while making mistakes and learning from them. 

Now obviously, if I believed I possessed the growth mindset, I would not be writing a blog about de-stressing my life.  So since I undoubtedly court (OK, you got me—we’re glued at the hip) the fixed mindset philosophy (I’m pretty sure Dr. Dweck’s been a bug on my wall since I was 4), I wanted to show you what I’ve learned about why my fixed mindset has been so detrimental to my well-being.  Before I do that though, I wanted to give you a little more detail about what actually goes through the mind of someone who has a fixed mindset.  See if you see yourself in any of these:

·         * They are satisfied sticking with tasks that require only their natural abilities because they don’t like their weaknesses exposed.

·         * They feel threatened by helpful critiques because the results of their efforts are a direct reflection of their individual worth.

·         * They are often perfectionists who take on only the tasks that they believe they can succeed in, often giving themselves higher goals while allowing no room for failure. 

When I take a long, hard, honest look at myself, these statements accurately describe me, and just admitting that on my own little corner of the internet is the first step in me breaking away from this crippling mindset.  Why do I say that it has crippled me?  Here are some ways the fixed mindset has affected my life.

1.         I have believed my whole life that my value lies in what I do, not in who I am.

This makes me want to cry it is so devastating.   From the time I was very little I began defining myself by my abilities—“I’m a great student; I’m a talented flautist, I’m able terrific organizer; I’m a gifted singer.”  If you think about each one of those, they still tell you nothing about who I was growing up.  They tell you what I did, but not who I was.   One can be a total schmuck and still be great flautist.  Was I honest, hard-working, loyal, loving, patient, trustworthy?  You see, because I defined myself in this way, I had to constantly maintain those abilities.  If I called myself a great student, I’d better get straight A’s.  If I called myself a talented flautist, I had to win principal chair in the orchestra.  If I failed to meet my own definition of who I was, I felt that I was losing my identity and that was a scary (and stressful) experience.  But if I strive to grow my character—who I am—then A+ or F, I can still be honest in school.  Principal chair or 3^rd chair, I can still be trustworthy and show up to each practice.  A pristine bedroom or not, I can still work hard to keep it as clean and organized as I can while meeting my other obligations.  Not meeting specific achievements every time doesn’t attack who I am at my core and so I have the mindset to grow from each experience.

As a Christian who loves my Savior deeply, I want to constantly look at each question along my journey through the lens of God’s Word to me—the Bible.  I Samuel 15 tells us about the spiritual downfall of Israel’s first king—King Saul.  I Samuel 9:2 tells us that Saul was “a choice and handsome man, and there was not a more handsome person than he among the sons of Israel; from his shoulders and up he was taller than any of the people.”  But when Saul disobeyed God’s specific instructions, he was removed from his position as king and the prophet Samuel was sent by God to find his replacement—David.  The youngest of eight brothers, David was overlooked as God’s chosen one.  As Samuel was eyeing the oldest, handsome brother, God reminded Samuel in I Sam 16:7, “Do not look at his appearance or at the height of his stature, because I have rejected him; for God sees not as man sees for man looks at the outward appearance but the LORD looks at the heart.”  In a world where beauty and position mean everything, God defines me by who I am inside.  And that’s how each of us should define ourselves.

2.        My mood alters depending on the result of my actions—if I succeed I’m happy; if I fail I’m devastated.

Because I have defined myself by my abilities, when I fail my very identity is threatened, and I react violently—I may quickly defend myself unwilling to hear advice; I may lash out in anger, taking my annoyance with myself out on someone else; I may begin to withdraw, feeling inadequate; I may scare myself out of ever trying again—all of these producing huge amounts of stress.  On the other hand, when I reach what I believe is my potential, I feel validated, secure, confident.  When I feel this way I treat people (and myself) better.

The big problem with this?  We are not perfect, and we don’t live in a perfect world with perfect people.  So when my house is a disaster again, it’s because my kids will be kids.  When I don’t get an A on a test, it’s because—here it comes—I’m not a perfect genius without flaws and I don’t know everything.  And I may have not had the time to study for an A because I had other important responsibilities to tend to.  The whole world doesn’t stop just because I’m in school!  When I spill hot cocoa mix all over my pantry floor, it’s because mistakes happen.  When someone says something that hurts me, it’s because people don’t always think about what they say before they say it (including me) and can often hurt people without even realizing it.  Forgive and move on.  It’s not a reflection on you.  

So what is Scripture’s view on this?  Paul tells us in Philippians 3:7-10, “But whatever things were gain to me, those things I have counted as loss for the sake of Christ.  More than that, I count all things to be loss in view of the surpassing value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and count them but rubbish so that I may gain Christ, and may be found in Him, not having a righteousness of my own derived from the Low, but that which is through faith in Christ, the righteousness which comes from God on the basis of faith, that I may know Him and the power of His resurrection and the fellowship of His sufferings being conformed to His death.”  Paul had every reason to boast—he had followed all the Jewish traditions; he was a native Israelite and born in an elite tribe; and not only did he keep the Law perfectly, he was a teacher of the Law.  And yet he said none of it counted for anything in view of the value of knowing Christ and being conformed to His image.  

Everything that happens in my day is a test—will I value my character over my abilities?  So when my kids leave mud tracks on the floor, I can either say I’m a bad housekeeper that doesn’t keep up with the dirt or I can clean it up when I have the time, with patience and joy.  When I don’t get an A on a test, I can either let it strip away at my feelings of self-worth, or I can be diligent in studying the best that I can, doing everything as unto the Lord.  When I spill food all over my floor I can call myself a klutz, or I can exercise restraint and instead thank God that I have food in my pantry.  When someone says something to hurt me, instead of taking deep offense, I can choose to let it go.  The first response shows that I place my value in what I do and how well I do it; the second shows that I place my value in my inner person—that I place value on using each and every opportunity to grow more like Christ.  

3.        I realized that I’ve been lying to myself about my motives.

As a perfectionist, it’s very easy to take offense when people give me any kind of advice or critique because essentially they are saying I am not perfect (how dare they?).  Since I often get upset with others when they point out my flaws, I explain my disappointment by saying that I am just a people-pleaser and that’s why it’s so hard to hear criticism.  For the first time in my life, I’ve realized what a load of crap that is.  I have told myself and others that I am a people-pleaser when in fact I am far less concerned about pleasing people as I am about saving face.  When I please people I look good.  When I don’t, I look bad and that’s a perfectionist’s hell.  And you know what horrible trait I have realized has taken root in my soul with the cool façade of “perfectionism”?  PRIDE.  

God has a few things to say about arrogance.  Proverbs warns us that “pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before stumbling.” (Prov. 16:18)  Paul gets even more poignant, admonishing us to “do nothing from selfishness or empty conceit, but with humility of mind regard one another as more important than yourselves; do not merely look out for your own personal interests, but also for the interests of others.”  (Phil. 2:3-4)

4.        I live in constant fear of failure and that fear paralyzes me from enjoying the journey that is life. 

Dr. Dweck reveals a unique distinction in the mind of someone with a fixed mindset.  Since they tend to place their value in their accomplishments, when they fail (and I fail a lot) they do not say that they have failed but rather that they are a failure.  You see, the first describes them; the second defines them.  And after you’ve been defined as a failure a few times in your life, you begin to fear it like nothing else.  This results in your losing the drive to take any risks, live life to the fullest, and enjoy the learning process.  How can you seek to learn when you might fail in the process?

The command to not fear is the most-repeated command in all of Scripture.  Isaiah 41:10 sums it up well: “Do not fear, for I am with you; do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God.  I will strengthen you, surely I will help you, surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.”  Psalm 27:1 says, “The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear?  The LORD is the defense of my life; whom shall I dread?”  I love that last verse!  The LORD, not my accomplishments or lack thereof, defends my life!  My life has worth because the LORD says it does, and when I step out in faith to try something that I just may fail at, He is there to light my way.  I may not always succeed, but I can always grow.

I’ve talked a lot about the fixed mindset, but let’s look now at its counterpart—the growth mindset.  The growth mindset believes that failing is not an end in and of itself but rather a chance to grow and become a better person which is of much more value than perfection.  Someone who puts themselves in positions where they always achieve their goals is probably not someone who is stretching themselves.  Someone with a growth mindset says that their worth is not in their accomplishments but in their willingness to learn and grow.  They love challenges because challenges mean opportunity for growth.  Because they don’t see failure as something to fear, they strive for new and exciting ventures and when they hit a bump in the road, they’re more than willing to listen to helpful advice about how to do it better.  Overall, people with a growth mindset believe that their willingness to learn, not their perfection, is directly related to their success in life.

I cannot tell you enough how absolutely freeing this was to me.  The power to be de-stressed lies in freely choosing a different mindset.  With a growth mindset my potential is up to me.  Something I’ve always tended to believe is that the way I was born is the way I am and the way I will always be.  Born stressed-out, always a stressed-out.  Born a perfectionist, always a perfectionist.  Born short-tempered, always short-tempered.  Born with moods with a swing that would impress a monkey, always a mood-swinger.  But we don’t have to live the life we’ve always lived.  In fact, when we become a Christian, II Corinthians 5:17 tells us that we become a “new creature; the old things [have] passed away; [the] new things have come.”  Now that’s some good news for a perfectionist!

As I was thinking about these two different mindsets, I asked myself, “Does the person with a growth mindset just smile as they go on failing?  Do they even desire to achieve anything?  Are they using their mindset as an excuse for laziness or shoddy work?”  But as I thought about this for a few days, I realized that having a Type A personality doesn’t mean will automatically achieve more nor does having a Type B personality mean you will fail more.  In fact, it might just mean the opposite.  Despite the personality you were born with, you will fail at some point in your life.  The difference between a person who chooses a fixed mindset versus someone who chooses a growth mindset is not in how much they fail, but in how they respond to their failures.  In the face of failure, the fixed-minded person will coil back into their comfort zones while the growth-minded person will strive for learning how they can fail less the next time around.  Both can be hard-working; both can be achievers; both can set goals; but only one will enjoy the ride.  

So I’ve asked myself, with all this wonderful information, what will I do from here on out to change who I am?  How will I go about changing my mindset from a fixed one to a growth one?  Here are some goals I have set for myself.

1.        Try new things even when—and maybe especially when—I don’t think I can do them well.

This will help me get used to failing more and give me great opportunities to react to failure differently.  It will also help me in that nasty, less-than-attractive pride area.

2.        Ask myself every time I fail, “How can I learn from this failure?”

This will help me to look at the positive side of failure—it’s a chance to grow.

3.        Be open to helpful criticism.

The book of Proverbs has a lot to say about making wise decisions and makes it pretty clear that it’s nearly impossible to do on your own.

Proverbs 12:15  “The way of a fool is right in his own eyes, but a wise man is he who listens to counsel.”

Proverbs 15:22  “Without consultation, plans are frustrated, but with many counselors they succeed.”

Proverbs 19:20  “Listen to counsel and accept discipline, that you may be wise the rest of your days.” 

4.        Evaluate my past failures and figure out where I went wrong.

It’s easy to look back on the past and remember how I was hurt or wronged.  I’m always my strongest supporter in a disagreement with another person.  Embracing a growth mindset has allowed me to start looking at past failures, especially in relationships, and ask what part I had in it and how I can be a better wife, mother, and friend in the future.

5.       5. Strive to teach my kids the value of having a growth mindset.

Since my son is a male carbon copy of myself, I realized that if I don’t start modeling the growth mindset, he just might grow up to be just as stressed-out as I have become, and I don’t want that for him!  I starting asking myself honest questions like:

·         Do I praise his accomplishments more than I praise his character?

·         Do I get frustrated with him when he isn’t 100% perfect?

·         Do I give him room to fail?

·         Do I respond to his failures as opportunities to teach him valuable life lessons?

Little kids are often asked by adults, “So what do you want to be when you grow up?”  Typical kids’ answers might be “a princess” or “a firefighter” or “a pilot” or “an artist”.  Are we placing more value on what the child accomplishes in their life when we ask this question?  Imagine if we asked our children, “Who do you want to be when you grow up?”  In other words, “What kind of person do you want to be?  What kind of character do you want to develop?”  Maybe if each of us fixed-minded people asked ourselves that same question we just might come up with a whole new game plan on how we actually want to live out the rest of our lives.

New Year's De-Resolution

I have aptly named my blog “A De-stressing Pilgrim” because it describes precisely the vision I believe God is giving me for 2011.  I have never been one to set New Year’s resolutions, since I always felt as if I were setting myself up to fail.  Although I may never set New Year’s resolutions, I set resolutions for myself every minute of every hour, every hour of every day, every day of every week, and every week of every month.  I write unreachable goals on the great life-planner in my mind, and I spend every minute of my life disappointing myself when I don’t reach those goals.  Before another word is read, you must understand something about me.  I have a Type A personality.  I am a list-maker.  I am an organizing freak.  If there were such a thing, I am Type A¹⁰—that is Type A to the 10^th power.  I have lived my nearly 30 years of life living in a goal-oriented hell that has trapped me inside of myself and made me nearly paralyzed in fear of letting myself down.  I have suddenly realized, maybe because of my 30^th birthday approaching, that I do NOT want to live the rest of my life this way.  And so, I have resolved to resolve a lot less in 2011.

For Christmas my sister gave my husband a 3-month membership to Netflix.  Now, this may not seem like that big of a deal, but since we do not have cable, and my husband loves any type of media, this has been a great sacrifice on his part.  So, in essence, this was truly the perfect gift for him.  We have been playing around with it this week since it’s been our stay-cation during the holidays.  And do you know what I am hooked onto?  Documentaries.  So last night, my husband lets me pick out our movie of the night, much to his chagrin.  My pick?  National Geographic’s documentary entitled Stress.  Sorry, Honey.  I know you were hoping for Into the Blue with Jessica Alba in a bikini or Die Hard with Bruce Willis defying physical laws of science as he jumps out of cars and off of buildings.  But you have to admit it—if anyone needed to hear the hard-core truth about stress and it’s effects on the body, it’s me.  Did you know that people who stress a lot age 6 years for every year of their life?  So since I’ve been Type A since birth and remember my first highly-stressful event when I was 4, that means that in the last 26 years I have actually aged 156 years!  Okay, I may be a little off-base—I’m sure I haven’t been highly stressed for every day of those 26 years—but close.  So maybe I’m closer to 100.  But still, with my husband being 33 and the ultimate “whatever, no-stress-in-my-life-EVER” kind of guy, that makes him a WHOLE lot younger than me and that makes me a cougar.  Can you see why I’m a little worried?  I was literally sitting on the couch last night stressing about my stress level.  Yikes.  I really need some help.

So as I was at Starbucks today with my friend (who is also a self-proclaimed Type A), our conversation veered from the topic of churches to stress-level—cue lights: a God thing.  I had no intention of baring my soul to her about my severe short-comings in this area, but there we were, me being highly vulnerable and resulted in her suggesting I see a therapist.  And I must admit, after the documentary last night, I think this might be a very good idea in order to preserve my life while I still have some left.  As we talked, she helped me realize one important fact about myself: because I’m a perfectionist, the goals I set for myself are so high that I continuously disappoint myself by not ever reaching them.  And each time I don’t reach a goal, I lose confidence in who I am as a person and what I am capable of.  This was monumental to me.  I live a life of self-induced stress and it is literally killing me.  I have suffered physical ailments that have at times disabled me from living a fulfilling life.  I live in a constant state of anxiety and many times out-right fear.  My husband asked me this week what exactly was giving me stress.  My response was another question:  “What’s not?”  Finances, my daughter’s health issues, my health, relationships, school, housecleaning, laundry, to-do lists, parenting, worrying about what people think about me, my future, my kids’ futures…do you get the picture?  If I deal with it in any part of my day, I stress about it.  Such an unhealthy way to live—for my mind, my body and my relationships.

As we were watching the documentary, the doctor said that we should only take one day at a time and only worry about today’s worries today.  My husband retorted, “Mmm…sounds a lot like something written thousands of years ago.”  He’s talking about Jesus’ words in Matthew 6:34, “So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself.  Each day has enough trouble of its own.”

This blog is about me spending 2011 finding out how to live this way.  As I get ready to go to bed tonight, I wonder, with a truly sincere heart that is aching from year of stress, what would it feel like to wake up and see only today for today’s blessings?  Today’s goals as today’s opportunities?  Today’s responsibilities as today’s possibilities?  Today’s hours as today’s gift from God?  Today’s events as today’s journey rather than a million little destinations that I must reach?  I don’t know.  But, with God’s help, I really want to find out.  Join me.